Living in the Moment

Today is the first day in two weeks that I am completely sober. I am very proud of my body for not dying from everything that I have shoved into it in that time period. So here I am, working away, googl-ing things, thinking about Chinese food.<-- My addiction.

So...What I have been up to:

Hair

(ignore the messy part)



Hanging out with this bitch

 

Volunteering

 Getting attacked by a cat while volunteering

Being awesome :P

Things have been pretty swell. Many people have come into my life that have changed my perspective on so many things. I (hope) I have made some long lasting friends and I am attempting to build a support system around me.

                          XoXo 

LET'S GET F*CKED UP BECAUSE WE'RE YOUNG

There is a girl from school that I have recently been getting pretty close with. Thank god, a friend!

Yesterday, she was having a bad day so we decided to skip and go drink at her house. We drank from about 11:30am to 11:30pm! I don't think I can remember ever being this fucked up before. We took shots on shots on shots of Rum, Whiskey, and Vodka. We may have also been using some recreational drugs....

We basically didn't stop moving for 12 hours yesterday. 

What we did:

Drank

Smoked

Cooked

Cleaned

Practiced our talent show talent--for probably 3 of those hours

Finished our school work

Went to work

Decided that that was a really bad idea and left work

Somehow made our way to some Kansas City Christmas lights

Got free donuts at Krispy Kreme

Got free burritos at FreeBirds

Went back to her house to drink/smoke more and practice the talent.

Yesterday was one of the greatest days I have had in an extremely long time. I very much hope that this girl and I remain friends. We have actual intellectual conversations, we work great together and we have fun! This friendship has made me feel very blessed. 

So now, I am laying in bed feeling way hungover but actually I am definitely still drunk. My guy was supposed to come over tonight but I had fallen asleep by the time he got off work. Dammit! It is 4 in the morning here. I need to be up and ready to go at 9 so I should really go back to sleep NOW.

I can't feel my fingers. Not confident that I am not going to throw up when I wake up again.

Over and out!

                              XoXo 

Netflix, Booze, and Boys

Netflix
Neftlix is getting better and better by the day! Netflix is my new hobby.

My current favorite TV is Law & Order: SVU! I may or may not watch it everyday when I get ready for school and then after I get off work...What? It's a good show!

BAM!

The only thing about Netflix is that I usually have to go in knowing what I want to watch because if I don't do that...I'll get caught in the Netflix trap!!! Ahh

Booze
I am a pretty avid booze drinker. My current preferences are cake flavored vodka and Captain Morgan original. Vodka is actually always my favorite but I really will drink anything with alcohol in it. Alcohol just makes me sublimely happy! In a way no other thing could. This is also my not-so-new hobby.

This link is a description of me, down to a T. Legit.
25 Signs Alcohol is Your Significant Other

That leads me intoooo

Boys
I have remained boyfriendless for FOREVER! I have been talking to a guy for a while but I don't think there is any hope for that. He is incredibly generous and nice but, besides there being absolutely no physical attraction to him, I have come to the conclusion that I dislike his personality.
So, I'm just here, chilling all by my lonesome. I don't mind entirely but I LOVE to cuddle and my favorite cuddle buddy is currently out of the country so this is problematic.

Life is pretty OK. Gonna go drink some vodka now...just kidding...I'm still at work...which is why my vodka is sitting in the car waiting for me. #shots

 <---My cuddle buddy

                       XoXo

Is it okay to hashtag in a blog? Whatever!

"Be Yourself; Everyone Else is Already Taken."

"Be Yourself; Everyone Else is Already Taken."
-Oscar Wilde

I think the two biggest lessons that I have learned this year is how important it is to be yourself, and also, how to be myself. Attending Paul Mitchell the School has been an eye-opening experience. I have had great days and I have had miserable days. There were times when I was inspired beyond my wildest dreams but there were also days where I was so bullied and teased that I would go outside and cry. I know that I didn't have it half as bad as tons of others in the world but I felt beat down, and those bad times were what taught me those aforementioned lessons.

For the past four and a half months I have been trying to make friends and get through school. The first three months were rough. People teased me for reading in school, they joked that I was lame and weird for bringing a book to school. (no, I am not kidding). They would yell at me for singing and for being too hyper yet they would nag me when I was too quiet. They would joke that I did drugs, tell other Future Professionals in the school that I did crack. They constantly were telling me to shut up or calling me the R-word. I was judged from day 1.

So anyway, to get to the lesson...over the course of two weeks I decided to be myself. I just decided, right then and there. It seemed so simple but up until that moment, I always thought I should try to make people like me and act how they act. BUT WHY?! Why should I do that, when I know that I was born to be more. Call me a cliché but I was born to shine. I took some advice from my favorite musical protagonist: Elphaba! For the next two weeks, I literally painted my fingernails green everyday, (yep, everyday. I had to retouch them when they chipped, obviously), and I stood up for myself. The green was a reminder that it is okay to be "strange" and loud and whatever! I bit back when they would tease me. I just kept being weird and finally I felt myself.

FINALLY I feel like I can say what I want and do what I want and I really don't care what other people think. It's amazing actually, how much better that feels. No one needs that stress.

F*ck them. F*ck the haters! They be drinking that haterade anyway, which probably contains lead which will lead to a painful death in the end...just kidding, that was mean. But for reals people! BE YOU! BE YOUTIFUL, BE WHATEVER THE FUCK YOU WANT TO BE, JUST BE YOU. Because I chose to do that and it feels great.


                           XoXo


Disclaimer: This isn't meant to be a sob story, just a possible excerpt of my inevitable biography. :)