"Be Yourself; Everyone Else is Already Taken."

"Be Yourself; Everyone Else is Already Taken."
-Oscar Wilde

I think the two biggest lessons that I have learned this year is how important it is to be yourself, and also, how to be myself. Attending Paul Mitchell the School has been an eye-opening experience. I have had great days and I have had miserable days. There were times when I was inspired beyond my wildest dreams but there were also days where I was so bullied and teased that I would go outside and cry. I know that I didn't have it half as bad as tons of others in the world but I felt beat down, and those bad times were what taught me those aforementioned lessons.

For the past four and a half months I have been trying to make friends and get through school. The first three months were rough. People teased me for reading in school, they joked that I was lame and weird for bringing a book to school. (no, I am not kidding). They would yell at me for singing and for being too hyper yet they would nag me when I was too quiet. They would joke that I did drugs, tell other Future Professionals in the school that I did crack. They constantly were telling me to shut up or calling me the R-word. I was judged from day 1.

So anyway, to get to the lesson...over the course of two weeks I decided to be myself. I just decided, right then and there. It seemed so simple but up until that moment, I always thought I should try to make people like me and act how they act. BUT WHY?! Why should I do that, when I know that I was born to be more. Call me a cliché but I was born to shine. I took some advice from my favorite musical protagonist: Elphaba! For the next two weeks, I literally painted my fingernails green everyday, (yep, everyday. I had to retouch them when they chipped, obviously), and I stood up for myself. The green was a reminder that it is okay to be "strange" and loud and whatever! I bit back when they would tease me. I just kept being weird and finally I felt myself.

FINALLY I feel like I can say what I want and do what I want and I really don't care what other people think. It's amazing actually, how much better that feels. No one needs that stress.

F*ck them. F*ck the haters! They be drinking that haterade anyway, which probably contains lead which will lead to a painful death in the end...just kidding, that was mean. But for reals people! BE YOU! BE YOUTIFUL, BE WHATEVER THE FUCK YOU WANT TO BE, JUST BE YOU. Because I chose to do that and it feels great.


                           XoXo


Disclaimer: This isn't meant to be a sob story, just a possible excerpt of my inevitable biography. :)