Living in the Moment

Today is the first day in two weeks that I am completely sober. I am very proud of my body for not dying from everything that I have shoved into it in that time period. So here I am, working away, googl-ing things, thinking about Chinese food.<-- My addiction.

So...What I have been up to:

Hair

(ignore the messy part)



Hanging out with this bitch

 

Volunteering

 Getting attacked by a cat while volunteering

Being awesome :P

Things have been pretty swell. Many people have come into my life that have changed my perspective on so many things. I (hope) I have made some long lasting friends and I am attempting to build a support system around me.

                          XoXo 

LET'S GET F*CKED UP BECAUSE WE'RE YOUNG

There is a girl from school that I have recently been getting pretty close with. Thank god, a friend!

Yesterday, she was having a bad day so we decided to skip and go drink at her house. We drank from about 11:30am to 11:30pm! I don't think I can remember ever being this fucked up before. We took shots on shots on shots of Rum, Whiskey, and Vodka. We may have also been using some recreational drugs....

We basically didn't stop moving for 12 hours yesterday. 

What we did:

Drank

Smoked

Cooked

Cleaned

Practiced our talent show talent--for probably 3 of those hours

Finished our school work

Went to work

Decided that that was a really bad idea and left work

Somehow made our way to some Kansas City Christmas lights

Got free donuts at Krispy Kreme

Got free burritos at FreeBirds

Went back to her house to drink/smoke more and practice the talent.

Yesterday was one of the greatest days I have had in an extremely long time. I very much hope that this girl and I remain friends. We have actual intellectual conversations, we work great together and we have fun! This friendship has made me feel very blessed. 

So now, I am laying in bed feeling way hungover but actually I am definitely still drunk. My guy was supposed to come over tonight but I had fallen asleep by the time he got off work. Dammit! It is 4 in the morning here. I need to be up and ready to go at 9 so I should really go back to sleep NOW.

I can't feel my fingers. Not confident that I am not going to throw up when I wake up again.

Over and out!

                              XoXo 

Netflix, Booze, and Boys

Netflix
Neftlix is getting better and better by the day! Netflix is my new hobby.

My current favorite TV is Law & Order: SVU! I may or may not watch it everyday when I get ready for school and then after I get off work...What? It's a good show!

BAM!

The only thing about Netflix is that I usually have to go in knowing what I want to watch because if I don't do that...I'll get caught in the Netflix trap!!! Ahh

Booze
I am a pretty avid booze drinker. My current preferences are cake flavored vodka and Captain Morgan original. Vodka is actually always my favorite but I really will drink anything with alcohol in it. Alcohol just makes me sublimely happy! In a way no other thing could. This is also my not-so-new hobby.

This link is a description of me, down to a T. Legit.
25 Signs Alcohol is Your Significant Other

That leads me intoooo

Boys
I have remained boyfriendless for FOREVER! I have been talking to a guy for a while but I don't think there is any hope for that. He is incredibly generous and nice but, besides there being absolutely no physical attraction to him, I have come to the conclusion that I dislike his personality.
So, I'm just here, chilling all by my lonesome. I don't mind entirely but I LOVE to cuddle and my favorite cuddle buddy is currently out of the country so this is problematic.

Life is pretty OK. Gonna go drink some vodka now...just kidding...I'm still at work...which is why my vodka is sitting in the car waiting for me. #shots

 <---My cuddle buddy

                       XoXo

Is it okay to hashtag in a blog? Whatever!

"Be Yourself; Everyone Else is Already Taken."

"Be Yourself; Everyone Else is Already Taken."
-Oscar Wilde

I think the two biggest lessons that I have learned this year is how important it is to be yourself, and also, how to be myself. Attending Paul Mitchell the School has been an eye-opening experience. I have had great days and I have had miserable days. There were times when I was inspired beyond my wildest dreams but there were also days where I was so bullied and teased that I would go outside and cry. I know that I didn't have it half as bad as tons of others in the world but I felt beat down, and those bad times were what taught me those aforementioned lessons.

For the past four and a half months I have been trying to make friends and get through school. The first three months were rough. People teased me for reading in school, they joked that I was lame and weird for bringing a book to school. (no, I am not kidding). They would yell at me for singing and for being too hyper yet they would nag me when I was too quiet. They would joke that I did drugs, tell other Future Professionals in the school that I did crack. They constantly were telling me to shut up or calling me the R-word. I was judged from day 1.

So anyway, to get to the lesson...over the course of two weeks I decided to be myself. I just decided, right then and there. It seemed so simple but up until that moment, I always thought I should try to make people like me and act how they act. BUT WHY?! Why should I do that, when I know that I was born to be more. Call me a cliché but I was born to shine. I took some advice from my favorite musical protagonist: Elphaba! For the next two weeks, I literally painted my fingernails green everyday, (yep, everyday. I had to retouch them when they chipped, obviously), and I stood up for myself. The green was a reminder that it is okay to be "strange" and loud and whatever! I bit back when they would tease me. I just kept being weird and finally I felt myself.

FINALLY I feel like I can say what I want and do what I want and I really don't care what other people think. It's amazing actually, how much better that feels. No one needs that stress.

F*ck them. F*ck the haters! They be drinking that haterade anyway, which probably contains lead which will lead to a painful death in the end...just kidding, that was mean. But for reals people! BE YOU! BE YOUTIFUL, BE WHATEVER THE FUCK YOU WANT TO BE, JUST BE YOU. Because I chose to do that and it feels great.


                           XoXo


Disclaimer: This isn't meant to be a sob story, just a possible excerpt of my inevitable biography. :)

A Few Things

A few things have happened since I last updated.
I am now full time on the floor at Paul Mitchell, I am moving this week (ugh), I am officially desperately broke (double ugh), and I am officially obsessed with taking baths.

At school I now take regular clients. I have about 400 hours this week. Yay, 1100 more to go! 

My roommates decided that she wants to move so we searched and searched for a new apartment closer to the city and finally found one named the London House. It's a perfect 8 minutes from school but now 20 minutes away from work so I'm not exactly saving gas. And the rent is more expensive...which leads to my next topic...I am broke! So desperately so, I am taking a loan from my best friend's parents. I am so embarrassed about it but I really have no other option if I want to have a place to live. I don't even know how to properly thank them! They have helped me so many times in my life and I have been racking my brains thinking of a way to repay them--in more ways than money, but in appreciation and love! 

Now, onto bathes! I have stumbled upon the most magnificent bath products I have ever used! They come in three different kinds: Stress & Anxiety, Cold & Allergy, and Soreness & Aches. I HIGHLY recommend them, they leave your skin soft and your system clear. I feel so great every time I leave my bathtub. I'm actually writing this from my bathtub! 

Well, that's all for now! I really really need to update more so that I can have something more in depth to say but currently I am at a loss of in depth thoughts and feelings.

                      C'est la vie. XoXo

Nothin' Special

This week I had my first client at Paul Mitchell the School!!! I did an all over color on her and then a beautiful blow dry/style with marcel curls. 

I also cut my bangs...again. So that's exciting! I can NEVER decide whether or not I want bangs. I'm always torn because I love to put all my hair up on top of my head but I think I look better with some fringe. 

Something I discovered this week was an abundance of beauty vlog tutorials on YouTube. These girls are my favorite: Zoella280390 and ilikeweylie

They both have great tips and lovely personalities so please check them out! :)

Signing out with beautiful pictures of me and my cat! (she obvis does not approve of selfies as pictured in the right one)

                                                                               XOXO

Where Have You Been?

  My Cat!













Where in the world have I been???

I'm going to be honest with you, I got super wrapped up with school and I FORGOT about my blog!!! Can you believe it? Because I can't. Anyway, I'm back (for now) and ready to update everyone on my sort of not really exciting life.

First off: I have been going to Paul Mitchell for 9 weeks now. This week I started my "Friends and Family Weeks" which means I have two weeks to work on my friends and family before I am officially taking clients!!! EEEEK!!! 

I absolutely love Paul Mitchell. I love the systems, I love the environment and I love the learning leaders. I feel like a completely different person while I'm there. Actually, everyone thinks I'm on crack because I am always so happy and hyper. I absolutely love it.

Now for the actual hair-doing. I love to color hair. I love to mix the colors and see how they turn out. I love trying to figure out how to get a brunette to a blonde and vice versa. 
I'm not too keen on cutting, which is really inconvenient. I just cannot seem to grasp the concepts! I think I am doing good and then I check my cut and it's completely off. WTF!? Well, one of these days I'll get it I suppose.
I also love styling hair. I can't wait to work on up-styles and do prom season. I really want to have lots of experience and a million photos so that I can build up my look book which will help me get a job in the next 10 months. 

As for the rest of my life...I currently work at Forever 21 which is pretty nifty! I work in the mall so there are always a ton of people! My favorite is to work cashier so I can be up at the front seeing what people buy and what not. 
My romantic life is a little sad. It's not non-existent, it's just...hmm...complicated, I guess? 
Also, now I'm fat, so now I'm working on that. My best friend is in France and my wanna-be best friend is 2 hours away. (I say wanna be because I want her to be...I don't know if that's how you say it..annnnyway) That's the update for now!

 
  Fingerwaves and Pin Curls

Client that I loved! Got to do her blow dry/style :)

Obviously I love my barbies!

Did this one too!





So! Come and see me at Paul Mitchell the School in Overland Park to get that fresh fall color that you have always wanted to try!

                            XoXo

Your Weekend Update/Girl Code

T-minus 15 days until I start Paul Mitchell. I signed my contract yesterday--eek!

I still have no apartment but lucky for me I am house-sitting until the 20th so I've got a tiny bit of time. 

Okay, can we please just talk about Girl Code?!

Recently I have become obsessed with Girl Code! And by recently I mean tonight. It's amazing, I am learning so much! Thanks MTV! I love this show. So much. 
Subjects they've talked about so far:
The morning after
Sororities-blegh
Boyfriend's friends
#isthatweird
Porn
Mothers
Decorating

Please, please just watch this show!

Shockingly my life hasn't gotten any more exciting since I took my little blogger break........
It's going to take a while to get used to not drinking so much once school starts. Sigh.

Watch Girl Code,
XoXo

Mad (Wo)Men

The stars of the fantastical show Mad Men:


I wish I had grown up in the 60's. I'm sure everyone says they should have been born in another era, it's a cliche but it's a cliché for a reason. The 60's were fast and loose and lovely. They could smoke and drink when they wanted and women with curves were sexy and desirable. Of course there were down sides but every decade has problems. I just love the glamour. 

Wish we could bring some class back to the 21st century. 

XoXo

Job Hunting and Lazy Days

The negative of being a big girl and withdrawing from university is that now I have to also find a job. :/
I peruse craigslist daily for jobs and occasionally careerbuilder. One thing that is holding me back is the lack of fuel in my car. I can't really afford to go out job hunting right now, ironically. Tomorrow my sister is taking me to the mall so I will pick up applications while there. The sucky thing is that I can only work between the hours of 5pm and 8am because I have school from 9am-4:30pm, so that makes things a litle difficult.

Anyway, aside from job searching I am spending my days watching films...horrible waste of my time but I have no friends and I don't know what else to do. 

I need to fill out my application for cosmetology school but they as you what your greatest achievement is...I don't know!! I am a lazy 20 year old, I have accomplished anything yet! Rough.

All well. Hope everyone is having a joyful summer.

XoXo

20 Things I Wish I’d Known At 20

So, I found this link of Pinterest (of course) and it's a list of advice that I think all girls in their twenties should take. It was written by Mighty Girl. It's genuine and funny and I definitely plan on taking and utilizing her advice.

Read and enjoy:

20 Things I Wish I’d Known at 20

XoXo

Weekly Report

I thought once I was done with school that I would be way better at blogging but really I've just gotten way better at taking naps. At least I'm well rested? I move from university on Saturday at 12. My parents are coming up to help me with my things considering I have too many material items to even dream of fitting in my car. 

This has been my week so far, mostly alcohol and funness:

My all time favorite quote of the moment :)

 My best friend Erin's snapchat. Fav forevs.

 I went and saw Rock of Ages and a character threw a pair of pants at us!

 My friend Rachel and I waving around the pink thong

 The cutsie cup I drank wine out of this week

 A starbucks run from Naomi and I

 Yes, I drank beer while in the shower. Proud moment...

 My fantastically adorable ring from my beloved sister!!!

Elephants are an obsession. 

Another Starbucks run

And another quote that I liked from my Mike's Hard Lemonade

Hopefully when I move out I will have an exciting update for everyone. Until then, keep cheery.

XoXo

Birthday

My birthday weekend!

 Flowers from Naomi!!!

 At midnight on my birthday

 My lovely cake!

 A night out to see "Into the Woods"

 Friday's hair

 

Part of our Cabaret cast went to sing at a retirement community

 Then we out for drinks! Houlihan's Long Island Raspberry Iced Tea is the best!

Today we are having a "cast reunion" even though we've basically been hanging out everyday since the show ended. It's going to be a barbecue which seems to be a popular thing to do here, which is fine by me. 

XoXo

Happy Birthday To Me

I have some fantastic friends here in Manhattan. After the show tonight, my friends Lindsay and Sarah and I decided to have a carpet picnic at their house with Taco Bell! Yum! So I beat them to their house after getting food and they told me that they were going to go to the bank so I waited in my car. About 20 minutes later, BAM, there they are rolling up in the car with a birthday cake with lit candles!!!! SERIOUSLY??? I wanted to cry and scream and laugh, from happiness of course! Words cannot express how truly grateful I am for them for them spending time with me and treating me so splendidly. <3.

Soo I have awesome manhattan friends, and a cake!

Much love
XoXo


Update: Flowers were just delivered to the dorm for me from my best friend!!!! They're beautiful!! So excited, I might have cried...no shame :)

Crafty

So I've decided that I really, really want to invest in a sewing machine when I move into my new place (whenever that will happen). I used to have one when I was younger and I know the basics of sewing. I just want to be able to make my own dresses and crafty stuff like that. I have absolutely no idea what kind of machine I would get but something with the ability to sew many types of fabric so I could have casual and fancy dresses. I want to make a mannequin for myself as well. One of those duct tape mannequin so it's completely customized. Love them. 

Nothing much is going on today. Work, sleep, work, and then I'm going to see Into the Woods in Junction City with some friends!! Hopefully we'll go to Houlihan's or something afterwards to celebrate my birthday. 

On my actual birthday (May 11) I am going to work all day and then go work with little kids at a beauty pageant workshop. I've never been in a beauty pageant so I have no idea why I'm going to do this. We shall see how it goes. I'll probably go to Chili's or Applebee's to treat myself. By myself. That's what happens when you have no friends. All well. :) 

So that's that, nothing exciting! Hope the rest of the world has a more thrilling weekend than me!

XoXo

Bachelorette

Can I just say how much I love this movie? It really makes me wish my life was more hardcore. Maybe not Jenna-hardcore but definitely more than the PG crap that it is right now...maybe it's PG-13 and R on a good day...just because of my vocabulary and alcoholism. 

Anyway, it's not a suitable movie for children, or parents or anyone not appreciative of raunchy humor and cocaine. Ha. And no, mom, I have never done cocaine! 

Oh god, I hope my mom isn't still reading my blog posts. That would suck. Sorry mom! Love you so much!

Buuuuut really, love this movie. The actors a great. Check it out if you're brave enough.

XoXo

STARBUCKS!

It's the time of the year again: Starbuck's Happy Hour!!! Oh, and I got new sun glasses!!!

I've definitely gone to Starbucks once everyday since Friday. I mean, how can you resist $2 venti frappuccinos??? Answer: you can't :)

This week is pretty chill, random events here and there and beaucoup de sleep! My favorite! 

That's it. I need to get back in the groove of blogging now that my life is empty! So much emptiness now that my show is over. 

XoXo

A Pain in My Heart

I don't just love New York, I worship New York. In fact, I don't think there is a word equivalent to the feelings I have for the place. So, currently I am standing out in the hall trying not to cry while my choir teacher is giving a presentation about their New York trip next year. I love New York so much so I figured I wouldn't be able to listen to a presentation about a trip that I can't go on. So, here I am. Stupid I know, but what can I do? I'm also over tired so can I blame the tears on that?

I'll try to update later. I've been too busy to blog recently! :(

XoXo

I Know Where I've Been

Where I've been this week:

My life has been taken over by the Cabaret!!! Last night we had the best cast party EVER! 

Everyday I wake up more and more sore but it's great because it's being caused by fantastic choreography in a fantastic show. The entire cast is magical and I am going to miss them an insane  amount when I leave Manhattan. I'm already preparing myself for the flood of tears that is inexplicably going to happen. 

That's about it for now. No life until after the show and I am totally okay with it!

XoXo

Movie Star Face?

Today someone told me that I had a movie star face.....umm THANK YOU! I don't know exactly what that means but anything to do with movies and stars I'm good with. 

Tonight was our first run through with an actual audience! The audience was made up of 80 year olds but it was still an audience! Tomorrow is our official Opening Night and we've got a great audience coming! Including my bestie Emma! She is coming into town for the weekend and I cannot wait. 

I went to class with finger waves in the making. It was really attractive. No shame!

Lastly, IT'S FRIDAY! Thank the lord, it's been a long week. 

This is a review:

Monday it was pouring rain

Tuesday there was a blizzard

And then today I saw the first group of dandelions 

Conclusion: Kansas weather is RIDICULOUS!

That's all for now

XoXo